Goin' nuts... yea... thats what I doing...haha.
8:16 p.m. - 2005-03-01
For the last 4 to 5 days, I have not been able to sleep very well at all. I'm uncomfortable, warm and just flat out restless even though I m died tired. Plus, I lay in my bed at 1 a.m. and I get a flashback from my past and I either get happy or depressed. I don't know why this is happening to me, but it's starting to drive me crazy. You know, like, if you had no sleep for days and your mind and body as a huge melt down and everything around you goes blah. An your mind goes crazy. An that's where I am at. I AM GOING CRAZY!!
Onto other news...
Rumor has it, an old friend wishes to pop up again and start talking to everyone again. Let me get this straight, he goes into the Navy, marrys a skank (from what I am told, not saying she is..), shuts everyone out, including his best friend for years, and now wants everything to be peachy-kean. LMAO..what crack pipe as he been smokin'?!?! I mean, I can't talk for everyone, but I personally feel like he can kiss my ass. If he really wants any serious part in my life, he has a lot of work on his hands. I really don't trust or care for him and for all I know, he can kiss my ass. He chucked out ALL and I mean ALL of his friends for that wife of his AND from what I understand, he doesn't really like me anyway. Who knows, I don't care...really.
On work news. Two of my co-workers are leaving in a few weeks. Which means a shitload of hours are going to be out for grabs. It will keep me even more busy and its all I am gunning for. So, to have 40+ hours and going to the gym 2-3 times a week. Then stash away more money away in my savings and the rest I'll be spending on myself. Afterall, I got a new body baby (well still working on it, but I lost alot), I got to get new cloths!! ha ha.
Overall, I am doing good. An I still madly in love with my guy. *kisses to him* So, if you need me e-mail me or leave a message in my guestbook. Later!
--Ally
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