In for a good wirlwind of change!
4:22 p.m. - 2005-07-13
Ok, so I have been lazy in updating. Just there hasn't been anything interesting to report. Just the normal, working and going to the gym. An if you want to factor in the fact I have been talking on the phone until the weee hours of the morning, which leads me to be lazy in updating, cause I am to damn tired after work. Now, I am not saying, WHO I am talking with. This person right now, is my closest friend that I have and has gotten me to laugh and really forget things for a good amount of time. Plus, I wake up in a good mood. I'm in a good place right now, and I really hope it doesn't change anytime soon.
What I am saying is, I am happy right now. An I can't explain how, where and why, I just am. I am right now content with who I am and being alone. It's something I need to do for now, anyhow. I am not saying I am not looking for someone. Just I am going to approach my next relationship alittle different. This time it's going to be with real patience and having a good foundation of friendship before taking the next step. An in the process, live life the best I can on my own, and worry about myself and no one else. It's what makes me happy right now. I'm taking my last relationship andlearning from it. I'm going to take my own mistakes and fix it. An lay ground rules for myself and feelings, when it comes to being with someone again. Plus, saying upfront what I am looking for and expecting and there are no second chances, no matter what. I can't handle what happen to me, like last time, again. So, friendship and trust is what I am looking for in a guy. If we hit off really well while being friends, then we'll take it to the next level. I'm playing it safe this time.
In other news...
I was told by my mother who borrowed my car this morning that when she got into my car there was a water on the floor board! I am like fucking great, now I have a leak somewhere in my car. So, now when it rains really hard, water gets into my car. An that is the last straw for me. So, my mother and I talked about getting the car fixed up the best we can, soon as possible and trading it in for the car of my liking. That is right, I am serious going to get it detailed, paint job and new tires on it and then I am going to get rid of it. An mom, said she is going to help. So, hopefully I am going to get a car sometime after my birthday, which is next month. Woohoo!! *happy dance*
All in all, other than a crappy, shitty POS of a car, things are going better for me. Work is work. An I should be getting a pay raise sometime in October and I am content with were I am at. An if some of you are wondering, no HE (who dumped me) as not got in contact with me. An I am not going to him either. If I am worth anything to him, he'll get ahold of me. I don't hate him nor am I mad anymore, just, well it's hard to explain. I hope he is doing ok and found someone he actually wants to be with and all that good stuff. An I will always stick with the fact, it will ALWAYS be his lose and not mine.
Anywho, I need to get back to my cleaning and working out. An yes, I work out now every chance I get. Looking good makes me feel better, so, ab work outs and weights are my big thing right now. Plus, I am wanting to relax before going back to work for 6 days straight again. Update you all whenever! :0)
--Ally
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