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A relaxing day...at last! Today was relaxing. I did things I couldn't do for days. I cleaned my room, so now it looks nice and organized. Then I washed all my cloths and put them neatly away and then I worked on my rings/cliques/buttons, whatever you like to call them. I made some really nice ones. I even making at site at angelfire to host time and have on the site. Nothing real facy, but now I am stuck and need frontpage to help me finish the rest. I got pretty far, just now I can't remember how to do frames and borders for the life of me. Either way, things today went well. Mom and I even went out for alittle bit today. We went to Wal-Mart, where out of no where it started to storm and the store lost half of it's lights. It was pretty cool, atleast to me anyhow. Anyway, mom and I got ourself a appointment to get a contact exam at the eye place on Thursday before I go to work, in the morning. It's 75 bucks for the exam, but I really want contacts. I am really tired of wearing sun glasses and not being able to see or wear my glasses and be blinded by the sun. So, now I get to have both. All I have to do now is dedicde if I want color ones or the plain ones. I have brown/hazel eyes, what color do YOU all think I should get?! Also today, I was so emotional. I would watch something romantic on TV and I would get all torn up. I would either miss Matt or tear up and miss him. I don't know what has gotten into me. I have no idea wear all this rush of total love and passion came from. I'm normally not that open and emotional. I'm lucky no one else was around or I would have been totally embarrassed. I as well, got alittle moody at Wal-Mart, I told my I was sorry about that. I think it's the knowledge of knowing I have someone like Matt in my life. Now I know him and I have only dated for 9 months, but I known him for about 2 years before we started dating. It feels like I have known forever. Matt is the kind of guy that would be your best friend, while you date someone else. Then after having a trouble break up with that one person, you see what you always wanted and needed in your life and heart, your best friend. Matt was and still is my best friend, just now my life partner. He saved me from a lot of pain. I guess you can say he is my hero, or savior rather. An like I always have said up to now, Matt and I have along way to go, but we are doing awesome. He is the best and I love him very much. Everyones life has it's own path. Everything happens in your life for a reason. Like cause and effect. My last boyfriend took it's toll on me, to where I had a nervous break down. Hell, my past isn't something I am proud of, alot of pain, lies, backstabbing, etc. An it took cold harded lessons to realize what kind of person I am and what I should and should not do with myself and life. So, being with my last boyfriend caused me to be happy now after going through years of rough times, and it effects me better than I would ever think of now. I came to realize, I am a strong person, to have to put up with what I did, it took guts and heart to handle it as long as I did. I can't blame my ex for everything, cause now all of it was his fault, but he did have a huge part in it. But now I am happy, content, and I know what I need and don't need in my life. Maybe it's just me, but I am a whole new person and there isn't a damn thing anyone can do about it. I like myself, and damn it I am pretty and don't give a fuck what people say or think either. People have a problem they can kiss my white, proud German-American ASS! Haha.. Ok well, I am going to end this here. Matt just called me, so I am going to go yack with him now. Later all! --Ally |