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The Diary
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A Real Love Story I would have to say, I am dreamer. An I am a firm believer in finding your soulmate or real love. I love watching movies with love and dream of things like that happening to me. Having the guy run after me after I get hurt or I left him, and try to get me back. An say, how he really feels for me. Better yet, kiss me in the rain and say I "love you! Don't go!". Love is something we all need to feel, to feel complete and happy. Having that someone in your life is what pro-longs your life. To have someone to hold you all night, to laugh with, kiss with, share secerts with, etc. To be over all, best freinds with. I mean, the key to a long lasting relationship is friendship and trust. An to be able to be close to that person and feel safe and comfortable with. Not worrying about him/her ever leaving over you flaws and sticking with you through trying times. I had my share of loves. They weren't my soulmates just people I cared/care about more than life itself. I've dated 4 guys in my life before I found the guy I want to be with. All of them made the deepest in packed in my life. Bobby- A guy who was sweet and is sensitive. I felt love for the frist time and it felt good. When things were over, I was hurt and wanted to feel that feeling again. So, I waited for love to come around again. Which lead to.. Chris- OMG! Him and I are still close. We clicked very well. He was and is the best, and treated me so well. Loved me for me. I was his world until I got confused, and left him for a mistake that we all make... that was when I met... Jaden- My frist incounter with passions deeper than the heart can lead. Strong words, strong heart and feelings dripping with pain and the real need to be loved. The understanding level lead to meeting... Curt-God I poured my heart into him. The understanding level was deeper than the love. To lose all that set me back to sqaure one. With him for almost 2 years. That is a long time for me. My heart was ripped and I was lost until I found the guy I was with now. Matt- Out of all the guys I dated, Matt never treated me the way they did. He shows me what good guys do with real love. An being with him now, got me on track for the life I wish to have. I love him so much. Yet, we are taking things one step at a time. He is my life, losing him I would be truly dead inside. Every single guy I listed are still in my head and I would always care for them in some way. I don't hate them for what they did or for what I did. If it weren't for them, I wouldn't have learned what pain and love felt like. They are what made me into today. A person with love stronger than anything and dreams of a life that she can have now without regret. I learned so much while with them. I took the chance to learn something about other people and life from each and every single one. I learned they all had something in common, besides me, is the loved they had with me. Even if it didn't last for them, it was so real that it hurted them more that anything. I know I made a impacted on them as well, atleast I hoped I did. No one is perfect and I later on learned to love every one for WHO they were, only because that is the way they were and are still this day.
To get a love like I have right now with Matt. You have to be pantient. It will come to you even if you have been alone for a long time. Just let the world see you and soon after a pair of eyes will latch onto you and never look away. Love is a gift. When you find that gift, let whatever is on the in side grow slowly. Never rush into anything that can't be taken back. I have regretted the things I done to my ex's. But they were for a reason that lead to the person I am today. Which I guess you can say I am a firm believer in fate. I am not with them any longer, only because there was a reason good or bad, love was strong and I would never forget them for it. If I can say something to each one (besides Matt) would be this. Guys, you were/are my world. I wouldn't be who I am today if it weren't for you. So, thank you. I just wished I could have met you all (an meet Curt again). I want to look in your eyes at least one time and say how I feel and leave knowing not all of it was bad. I am strong and I am happy. YOU guys done that and I am forever in your debt for that. If you need me for anything, let me know. I can only hope we can be friends (even though I am with Chris already) someday. I wish you all the bestest luck in the world and hope life isn't treating as bad as you think it is. All my love.. Ally. ------ If you all, the readers, have a love story sign my guestbook and then e-mail me the story and if you like I can posted it on here. Later. --Ally |