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The Diary
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Finding things funny. I find it funny, when someone would think I fall for every new guy in my life. I smile at the thought of knowing, they don't know the truth. They don't understand I how feel or think, that they justify me as basically being a whore. What they don't know is, I have lots of "new guys" in my life, but they are just good friends or "family". There is only ONE guy in my life that I care for more than ALL others. An for me get to that feeling, took awhile. Lots of thinking, waiting and to wait to see what the other one feels. An frankly, I don't care what people think. I am happy with myself and happy with who and what I am. Plus, hearing from someone who finds it funny that I am happy. Only leaves me to think they are unhappy with the fact, I am not the one who I feel happy with them. Like, it's not them I am slowly falling for. I find that really funny. An the comment, "I prefer love over life". Heh, well I want to live and to me, love is part of life. Now meaning of life is different for everyone. AN for the reason of living is different to everyone. But my reason for living is the same for my reason for loving someone. Now, I have not lost fouce of my goals or where my potenial is to lead me. I am serious about my life and where it's going to lead me. Even if I didn't have that love in my life right now, I still would have that in check. I just love it when someone labels me one thing, and thinks I am doing another. It's really a shame and waste of engery to feel the way they do. Nevertheless, they should know me better before opening their mouths. Anyway...I am not going to let it get to me. I know the truth. Speaking of loves. Things between my love and I are going great. We are taking things slow. Which for a change for me a good thing right now. I can't say I am in love with him, but the feeling is growing. Yet, him and I perfer to wait to see how things go when we meet in two weeks. For now, talking on the phone a couple times a week and e-mailing is what has to do for now. All in all, things are fine. An to keep things even more private, I am going to keep things that happens between him and I, to myself. Cause him and I think it's best to let people think what they want. We are not going to let them get to us. Plain and simple. Total topic change... Work has been as of lately really busy. This past weekend, the high school seniors in my area had their prom. So, we've been slammed with processing film from three different schools. Things were hecktic and stressful. Everyone got on each others nervous and we all were so tired. Things now are calming down again. Either way, I am still looking for another job. An I might have one in my sights, I just have to check into some more. It pays more, and gives me weekends off. Which for me, is a big thing. Cause I normally ALWAYS work weekends. Sucks ass! Ok well, I am going to go relax outside with a good book and/or do some writing. TTYL. --Ally |