Living life the best way I know how.
7:14 p.m. - 2005-07-19
Well, 6 days went by since my last update. I didn't know it went by so fast. I guess, it's part of getting a life and trying to keep it going with work and going out much as possible. An as for work, it as been a long and busy week. Being short handed and with the boss lady on vacation, it's been draining and fustrating. So, I have been being pulling my hair out and trying my best to be patient and to bite my tongue. Cause it's been hard with my co-workers being stupid sometimes and customers being beyond assholes, it's hard to keep cool sometimes. All in all, it's been going and it will be even better when I get my yearly pay raise and actually making more each pay check.
As for my whole gym work outs, I have stepped up my work out with more weights and longer cardio. Of course, with alittle bit of a different diet. Even less food and when I do eat, it's contains very little fat to no fat or very little carbs. Meaning, absolutely no junk food or pasta. Just for a month, just to see how much more fat I can burn off. Cause I still have some fat on me. I mean, you can pitch my sides still and feel fat. An I want to get rid of that. I'm sore right now. My abs are killing me and so is my lower back. Every muscle in that area is being worked like a cheap whore in a hotel. lol. So, other than being sore, I feel heathly and full of enegry.
As for my emotional well being,lets just say it's getting better. Being single right now is lonely, but I'm functioning. Which reminds me, some people keep bringing up my ex. Let it go people. In fact, leave me alone about it. I'm trying to really let go, like he wants me too and how I want to. An with you keeping throwing it my face or talking about it is, just kinda hurtful. So, to make it clear for the last time. This is HIS choice, NOT MINE. HE thinks it's for the best. HE is the one who feels that it's not meant to be. Its' HE who thinks we should be just friends, NOT ME. HE is the one who no longer wants me or is in love with ME and not the other way around. I just want to move on. An I still stand by, with knowing that maybe one day he will regret his decision and realize what he had and maybe he won't. An I can live with that. Hell, I have no choice. So, let it go people. It's his lose not mine!
Anywho, I really need to get my car cleaned. I still have/getting standing water in my car. Which by the way, I found out whats really causing the water in my car. An old large water bottle busted under the driver seat. So, I have to take out all the trash (I'm lazy, sue me) and dry out my car the best I can tomorrow, then in the afternoon get it detailed. Then get a new left side mirror. An who knows, maybe then we'll see how much my car is worth and then trade it in for a better one. Cross your fingers!!
Ok, well, I am going to go for a walk or something. I'll catch you all when I have time. Laters!!
--Ally
P.S. A new cast page is coming soon. It needs a serious update. hah.
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