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The Diary
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I'm Tryin'! I have been trying so hard to keep myself from exploding. With all the things going through my mind and the worries I go through everyday, it's no wonder I drink myself into a mess (like I did last Saturday night). I have close friends tell me I need to worry about myself and not on others so much. Well, here is a news flash, I don't know what to do with myself, so what I need for myself I help others get. It's part of how my mind works. I feel it's my duty to help others. To care more than other people. Putting my life on hold to help others or be there for other people can be painful and very stressful and I shouldn't do it so much. But it's really a way for me to keep me from facing what I need to do with my own life. An I don't ask for anything in return either. It's a selfless act really. Lately, I feel my helping is making things worse for some people. An it's driving me insane. It's like sitting and waiting to die, and there is nothing you can do. You are so full of life and wanting to share it with someone, and you get shut out cause you can't help.
--Ally |