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Coming Home.. Hello all once again... (Again, to understand what I am about to talk about click here.) *Listens to Return To Innocence* Sorry about the lack of updates. I've been doing a lot of thinking (plus been busy with work). I have been getting the feeling I belong somewhere. You know the feeling you get when you feel full and complete?! Well, that is where my mind is stuck on. It keeps replaying in my mind and I feel so connected. I get the feeling of finally being HOME. An I would see the world in a different light. To see the world in a way hardly no one can see, but me and maybe a few others. The feelings I get when I do is very over powering and knocks the wind out of me. I love the feeling though. I feel so strong and insightful when I do. My dreams are alittle different. An even though I don't remember much, I wake up with the feeling of someone calling me, like a mother calling her child home for dinner. The odd part for me is, in my dream I am running to the call, running home. When I reach home, there is a guy waiting for me. He is tall (well any guy over 5'6 is tall to me, heh), dark hair I can't say black or brown, just dark hair. He has light pale skin, strong eyes yet very attractive. He is wearing long trench coat, with nice fitting blue jeans and a white shirt. He holds his hand out to welcome me home. When I am home, I feel at one with all my family members. Then I see the few I had in my previous dreams. An that was when I woke up. I sat up in bed and for a minute figure out where I was and to sit in awe. Then when I go about my day, I feel homesick. For reasons I do not know. I just yarn to come home and sleep to see it all again. What is so damn amazing is all this dreams come in a row, like a puzzle, where each dream is a piece to the puzzle. The question is, how big is the puzzle and how long will it take to complete?! I just got to find a way to get home. Cause with each dream, one of my questions get answered. An belief me, I have millions of questions. I guess it will take how ever long it will take to complete. An I am willing to go all the way with the puzzle to see what holds for me. I still miss him. I miss the way he makes me feel and still up to now, I can feel him. I found my calling and I think it's time to basically go home. An I am going to start by ordering a BOOK with my next paycheck. ********* Anyway.. I am off today, and thank God too. I worked long hours for the past 4 days. An sadly, I go to work 12 P.M.-10 P.M. tomorrow. I hate maintence. Yet, I am off again Thursday, but to only hang out with Tina and go with her to her doctors appointment. All I am doing today is my laundry and the rest, well we'll see. Good day all. --Ally |